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Title: １リットルの涙

Title (romaji): 1 Litre no Namida

Also known as: Ichi Rittoru no Namida / One Litre of Tears / A Diary with Tears

Genre: School, romance, family, human

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15-year-old Ikeuchi Aya was an ordinary girl, the daughter of a family who works at a tofu shop, and a soon-to-be high schooler.

However, odd things have been happening to Aya lately. She has been falling down often and walks strange.

Her mother, Shioka, takes Aya to see the doctor, and he informs Shioka that Aya has spinocerebellar degeneration - a terrible disease where the cerebellum of the brain gradually deteriorates to the point where the victim cannot walk, speak, write, or eat.

A cruel disease, as it does not affect the mind in the least. How will Aya react when told about her disease? And how will Aya live from now on?

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A guy named Asou Haruto ......

Asou : "Ikeuchi Aya was ..my high school classmate. When i first meet her, on an overpass.. she knocked down all of the bicycles... If she wasn't there, i wouldn't have gone to Higashikou high school. "

" 'God's not fair...' Ikeuchi said the same thing. That's what was written in her diary."

"She tries hard at her rehab....She was amazing...."

Aya : This disease.... this disease... why did it choose me?

Doctor : Your daughter's disease, for some unknown reason the cerebellum, and the nerve cell in the cerebellum are slowly degenerating. In other words, you can consider them dead. Even though it will progress slowly, the disease is getting worse everyday...........

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She won't be able to move when she wants to move. And she won't be able to talk when she wants to talk. She needs to be prepared to fully understand this... It's a very cruel disease....It can't be cured ...

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Ikeuchi Mizuo (Father)

Ikeuchi Shioka (Mother)

Father : What kind of stupid doctor did u ask?! Go to some other place to ask again!

Mother : I've asked a lot of doctors already... I searched on the internet too, I've read a lot of books.. I also went to ask the most prominent doctor in the field. But .... but... he said it is not curable with the current medical technology....

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Asou : I was concerned the fish that died this morning, had been infected by some kind of virus. If it's that, then without proper treatment, the other fish will die too.

Aya : Strange person ....

Asou : What?

Aya : Asou-kun, you think that the death of a human is no big deal. Yet, you concerned about the fish.

Asou : Shut up.

Aya : Strange person ....

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Father : You know, i just want ... Aya to smile ...I will try my best to tell more jokes. And i hope during this crucial period of time, she';; be able to enjoy herself more. I thought that .... everything would be fine . That's why, while we are trying to hide the truth from her, we can see her happy...

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Aya : Who i was up until yesterday, will never show up again ...

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Aya : Asou-kun .....

Asou : Why are you standing in the rain like an idiot? I won't care if you catch a cold and have to stay int he hospital. That guy..isn't coming.

Aya : Eh?

Asou : Apparently something came up. He phoned the hospital just now.

Aya : Asou-kun, that's why you came to tell me? Actually, I already knew that senpai wouldn't be coming.

Asou : Eh?

Aya : It's actually better if he doesn't.

Asou : What are you talking about?

Aya : I ...... the doctor tell me i won't be able to walk. Slowly my speech will also become impaired.

People won't be able to understand what i'm saying... And then, i won't be able to wake up from sleep..

Talking.. and eating.. will become impossible.. Asou-kun, you said before right? "Humans are greedy and selfish" Perhaps, we really are greedy.

Forcing ourselves to go after things ... is a mistake, right?

I want to go back in time ...

I want to make a time machine and go back in time !

Asou : ..............................

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Aya's Family member : Aya! Are you okay?

Father : Be careful, are you okay? Slowly . Here, lie down.

Aya : I'm sorry .... This is my fault i have become like this. I'm really sorry ...

I'm sorry, i'm creating such bad memories for everyone ... I'm sorry ...

Mother : Aya .... Stop apologizing. The disease isn't your fault either. No matter who is sick, of course the people in their family will be helping them, right?

Isn't that more imposing? In this world, there are many different kinds of people. There are some like you, who can't walk properly, and can't see properly. Also, for example there are some people like Hiroki, who are good at sports.. and like Ako who excel in drawing. There are also some like Otousan, who are good at making tofu.

This society is made up of all these different kinds of people, right?

Ako, Hiroki, Rika ... Everyone sit down.

Umm ... Aya's disease, is a type of disease called spinocerebellar degeneration disease. It's a type of disease that causes the peripheral nerves to not function properly. Slowly ... she won't be able to talk, walk straight, and won't be able to hold heavy objects. Helping everyone to take care of the things in the shop and at home like before, is going to be really difficult for her...

But... please do not abandon Aya. Don't leave her. I want you to lend her your help.

Hiroki : I understand. I... stand on Aya-nee's side.

Rika : Rika too!

Mother : Thank you ....

Ako : It can be cured, right? It can be cured, can't it?

Aya : They said it can't be cured ... with the current level of medical technology, there is no cure..

Ako : Suddenly ... you suddenly saying things like this. I don't know what to do..

Father : I-it's really easy. When someone is facing difficulties, you should lend them a helping hand. When a friend, is crying, you should ask them, 'What happened?" right? That's exactly how it is. Take the gentleness you have in your heart..express it out and that will be fine.

Ako : Gentleness? Those kind of thing, i .....

Father : You are gentle too..!

Ako : I don't like it.

Aya : I am still me..

Mother : That's right. No matter what happens, Aya is still Aya. An important family member.

Aya : I shouldn't be saying "I'm sorry" .. I should be saying "Thank you".

Father : Yes, that's more like my kid!

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Aya : Asou-kun, i have one favor to ask you.

Asou : What else is there?

Aya : Can you watch me, and make sure i don't cry?

Asou : Eh?

Kawamoto-Senpai : Hello?

Aya : Umm.. it's Ikeuchi.

Um ..... Up until now, thank you for always taking care of me..

I.... when i passed Higashikou's exam, i was really happy. When i heard senpai said , "Congratulations" to me , and 'Continue to play basketball" ... and giving me that wristband, also made me really happy. But, But i... I think, i want to stop participating in club activities...

Therefore, with senpai .....

Kawamoto-Senpai : I got it. Umm, hurry up and get well soon.

Aya : Yes. Goodbye ...

Asou : You're so cold. Coming from one side, and saying goodbye over the telephone. That way. Kawamoto-senpai might cry,right?

Aya : Maybe.

Asou : Don't lie to yourself. Just cry.

Aya : I don't want to.

Asou : You really are being cold.

Aya : But... I don't want to be penalized in front of you.

Asou : You managed to do it.

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Aya : Instead of trying to chase after what made you cry, you should try hard by yourself with what is left...
When i thought, "Did the bright light come in?" It was rainy. It was stormy. It was clear again.

There were my weaving feelings. But, you have no choice ...

... but to live now ...

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Aya : That's about right. Is that all right, Hiro?

Hiro : All right.

Aya : You shouldn't shoot randomly. You should aim for spots within this area. Have the image in your head, and then practice hard again and again.

Mother : Image training, right?

Aya : That's right.

Hiro : Okay, i got it.

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Hiro's friend 1 : You must be Hiro's neechan right? Please teach us how to play soccer too.

Ako : Eh?

Hiro's friend 2 : It isn't this neechan. And also, it's actually impossible for the other neechan to teach soccer. She can't even walk.

Right, Hiro? That's right you didn't introduce her to us, right? Instead of asking you sister to teach you how to play soccer, why don't you teach her how to walk instead?

Hiro's friend 2 : Ouch!

Ako : You aren't qualified to play sports! Hiro, why aren't you saying anything? They're are talking about Aya-nee like this! Aren't you angry?!

Hiro : It's because ....

Ako : Why don't you say something?!

Hiro : It's because i don't have a choice!

Ako : Don't have a choice? What do you mean you don't have a choice?! Are you.. ashamed of Aya-nee? So you can't bring yourself to say anything?

Hiro : ...............................

Ako : The person is bad, but you are worse.

Mother : Ako, what happened?

Ako : What are you ashamed of ?!

Ako : What are you ashamed of Aya-nee?!

Ako : Aya-nee is really amazing ....

Mother : Ako ...

Father : Hey, did something happen?

Ako : Aya-nee .... has been working hard on rehabilitation exercises every day, really optimistically...
If ..... i had her disease...i wouldn't have her courage to leave the house. If other people gives me strange looks, and said strange things about me, i wouldn't be able to smile like her..

I .... for the first time, I feel that Aya-nee is amazing!

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Ako : This ....

Aya-nee sewed this !

For Aya-nee, sewing your name really took a lot of effort.. Do you understand ?!

Don't you know how much time she spent sewing it on? Sacrificing her sleep time!

Hiro, can you do something like this ? For Aya-nee, can you put in the same effort ? Why are you so ashamed of Aya-nee ?!

Mother : Ako! It's okay .

Ako : People with those kind of thoughts make me feel even more ashamed.